The world is laughing

Bismillah

Honestly, many times I feel I'm different from others. Probably in ways I do things and ways I rationalize things. I prefer giving freedom to others so long it does not cross the borderline. I hope, I really did. I'm very sorry if I ever being the conquering personality which most probably did happen at times ( or always?) But as for myself? I think I got laughed many times :(

yeah! I don't mind people joking around cause I do all the time too! I always make fun of myself unintentionally and thus the laughing. That one, doesn't matter to me cause I know I'm that clumsy type :) But I got disturb with people laughing when I mean business. My friend always tell me that they hardly tell when I'm actually angry. Probably because I laugh a lot or just expression-less or even my "angry" voice is not so angry? cut of that. I'm D-E-P-R-E-S-S-E-D.

I faced this in school. In pre-university. And now, it starts again. Med school does somehow drive me mad (mad =crazy and/or angry) I think I'm just ... D-I-F-F-E-R-E-N-T and many can't accept that? Is it wrong that I'm being so enthusiast? too energetic? too curious? or too anxious? Just leave me alone if you don't want to mingle with people like me -___- I don't mind seriously. It's better that laughing me out cause that action simply kill me, deep inside.

I have my own goal. I have my own mission and vision. I can see what am I going to do in future. and of course, I'm not that intelligent type which can get things easily into my parietal lobe. I'm average . I'm ordinary, but I don't want to remain ordinary. Thus, I've to do and work extra ordinary.

and I'm D-E-P-R-E-S-S-E-D when my extra ordinary work is not accepted. I mean, I don't need praises, support or encouragement word. I just need FREEDOM to do my things in my own way. MY OWN!

" GREAT PEOPLE DON'T LISTEN SO MUCH ON OTHERS"

My vission is to make not only my family (esp my parents ) proud of me, but I wish that on The Day Of Judgement, when The Prophet look at me, at least He'll be proud to see me as his follower.

crazy huh?

Go on and keep on laughing!

Wallahua'lam =)